Pain

Its beeen a while lol.

Well its January 3, 2010 2:56 am
Well i went to my cousin Petes welcome back party. It was good seeing him after soo long (:

Well I lost my grandmother on December 1,2009 and its been really really tough. She went to have a hip replacement and had 3 cardiac arrest and then the doctors said she was brain damaged and they didnt think she was going to make it. She lasted 3-4 weeks. When I went to see her in the hospital it tore my hearts to shreds since i had just lost my grandfather a year before. I told her that i loved her and i missed her and that she will make it out of the hospital cause she has to come and cook me some of her delicious food... She opened her eyes and I will NEVER forget the pain in her eyes. She looked at me and recognized me. I made her laugh and told her to go back to sleep so that she wouldnt be in pain. My family ended up spending Thanksgiving in the hospital. We made a video for when she would come out of the hospital. On December 1,2009 she passed away.

My mom inherited her house and its hard living in her house without her here. Im just waiting to hear "tina dame agua". i miss her to death and would do anything to hug her. it takes me hours to fall asleep. ive always considered her house my home, but ever since she passed i cant see this as my home. its just not the same anymore. people try not to think of thier loved ones that pass, but its kinda hard when you live in thier house. i love my grandma and miss her dearly. i wish i could have her back. she would cook me lunch EVERYDAY when i got home from school but now i come home with no out granny sitting in the dinner table waiting for me to arrive a t 2:30 everyday anymore. it really hurts and idk how im gonna deal with all of this. i just want her back. i wish i did more with her when she was here. but ill never forget the great memories with her, putting on her wig and glasses :D and making her crack up. i love that old lady to death. she was the BEST grandmother hands down!
te quiero abuelita, para siempre. goodnight abuelita